Is it not precisely the peculiarity of human functioning - and its tragedy - that man tries not to face his conflicts; that is, that he does not choose consciously between what he craves to do - out of greed or fear - and what his conscience forbids him to do? The fact is that he removes the awareness of the conflict by rationalization, and the conflict manifests itself only unconsciously in increased stress, neurotic symptoms, or feeling guilty for the wrong reasons.

You locked yourself from inside, you created a cocoon prison from your past. There's no one to fight, you can only be depressed.